I can't fall asleep..

Simply Nothing - Shawn McDonald
Blagh...it's 7AM and I still haven't been able to fall asleep.
I hate the feeling of tossing and turning. It's like one of the most stressful situations that a person can be in while being half conscious and half unconscious. Hahah that sounds funny.

Being at home this break has been good. It's been a blessing to have so many things readily available at hand. I thought that it would be really boring due to Binghamton's long winter breaks, but it's been joyously eventful.

However, it's hard to think that I've been fed spiritually while attending my dad's church. Understanding sermons in Korean is not my forte. I never realized how much of a privilege it was to hear God's word preached in English or at least in a way that I understood. Also, how much of a privilege it is to worship with a community of believers.

From attending the revival on Friday, I think learned that I simply don't try hard enough in seeking every possible opportunity of being fed. There's so many resources out there that I put to waste. If only I keep thirsting after him while embracing every resource that is out there, my spiritual hunger is bound to be satisfied in some way or the other. And if that doesn't work, it's my shortcomings of understanding His amazing grace.
I continually fall in love with the fact that God always breaks us to a point where we need to fall on our knees and cry out to him for help. There really is no better way to put it--there's beauty in the broken.

Okay, I have a plane to catch in a couple of hours to visit my granny in Hawaii. Maybe I'm too excited to fall asleep.